Rememberance of a Childhood

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will…


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Courage to Accept Indecision

“Sometimes, the way is not clear. Our minds get clouded, confused. We aren’t certain what our next step should be, what it will look like, what direction we are headed. This is the time to stop, ask for guidance, and rest. That is the time to let go of fear. Wait. Feel the confusion and…


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Thirty Days

“My dear, Find what you love and let it kill you. Let it drain you of your all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness. Let it kill you and let it devour your remains. For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it’s much better…


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Is This Okay?

So often I am told how lucky I am. I have undivided support from my family, a beautiful home, financial security, access to the most promising resources, help and education, a host of caring friends, not to mention my gorgeous rescue cat Maggie and puppy Grace. But nevertheless I find myself sadly unfulfilled, alone and…


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Questionable Future

“Are you hearing me, STOP IT, how do you have any idea what I am feeling?” The future is terrifying. I am scared of living but do not want to die. The both of them, survival and death…I’m not sure which scares me more. Although riddled with internal anxiety , the snowglobe of my insides…


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Wanting to Use

I have an infected root canal and was prescribed percocet from an endodontist. Taking pain medication has ignited my physical and mental craving for drugs. My alcoholism has taken over and I am feeling powerless to stop the obsession in my mind. Today was supposed to be the mouth surgery but since antibiotics have not…


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Waking Up- Suicide Survival

I tried and failed…again- after not hearing from me for over 24 hours my parents called the police to come to my apartment. There I was nearly dead from an intentional heroin overdose, wrists slit, bathtub filled, blood everywhere and a note in my desk drawer. I passed out before making it into the water…


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